My heart broke a bit on Sunday morning. The Lord used this sweet girl to do it. It broke in the best way. In a sanctifying way. In a humble way. In a “I don’t want to forget this” kind of way…
Sundays are stressful. They just are. I’m a “single mom” on Sundays since my husband is a pastor and I have six kids to get ready. A lot of the stress level has to do with my preparation or lack of preparation. I was heavy on the lack this week. I had put on a women’s conference all day on Saturday, my big prep day, so needless to say, my prep was nil to none. Usually we lay out our clothes, have the laundry caught up, all dishes done, shoes laid out etc. Didn’t happen. AND I thought it would be a brilliant idea to get up and make a big breakfast on Sunday… um WHY?!
So, it’s 9 a.m. and we need to get going here people! “Where are your clothes?!” “Where are your shoes?!” “Don’t you dare take those pants off!” “Where’s Chloe?!” Those were just a few things that I said on repeat.
I was in the girls room rudely and frantically trying to get them dressed when I said to them: “It would be nice if you guys would have this stuff done the night before!” My sweet three year old responded: “Mama, I think it would be nice if you had a nice face and talked nice and didn’t act like a bad guy.”
Oh. My. Heart. Broken. Convicted. Sad.
She’s so right. I want to be a “mama with a nice face”. I’m sick of acting like a bad guy. I guarantee if a friend was over that I would have had the self-control to speak with gentleness and kindness and not blame my children for my lack of planning.
Has the Lord ever allowed you to see your “bad guy face” mama? He has for me. It’s not pretty. It’s scary. I wouldn’t want to look at it.
Lord, remind me of this! Remind me to have Your joy as my strength and for my children to see that joy in my face… not a bad guy. May I be humble with my children and be a mama with a nice face. Amen.
“She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.” Proverbs 31:26